Year after year I have been finding myself falling back into certain habits. I promise I won’t spend that much money or I’m sure I will be much more organized than last year. Yet within the first six months of the year, I am berating myself for falling back into the same challenges. Why does this keep happening to me? I have recently learned about “Repetition Compulsion.” The first time I heard the phrase I felt like it applied to me and my dilemma.
What is repetition compulsion? Well, it is described as a psychological phenomenon in which individuals find themselves repeatedly engaging in the same behavior, despite the fact that the behavior is painful or uncomfortable. It is thought to be a way for people to reenact painful situations in order to gain a sense of control over them. Does this apply to me? I am working to examine this issue in my life in order to place balance back in my life and I am examining these issues in my life.
So far, I have learned that repetition compulsion often takes on many forms. For example, I need to examine whether I am finding myself in situations that are similar to past traumatic events or if I am engaging in behaviors that are reminiscent of past traumatic events. Finding myself repeating certain patterns of behavior, such as avoiding certain positive actions, or engaging in self-destructive behavior must be examined.
In the coming weeks, I will be examining my behaviors and sharing with you how I am working to improve areas in my life. Follow me on my journey of self-discovery and growth.
-Shelly
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